destination... unknown

its been months, and i still feel lost.  i don't know where i'm going, and i have no idea how to get there.

i feel like i am floating in life.  floating along, with zero goals.  i don't really know what i want out of life, besides being happy, and i can honestly say i have no idea what will make me happy.  its a strange feeling.  i have nothing to grasp onto. 

its a new year.  2010 pretty much sucked.  there were a few good things in it.  staying home with my kids was a definite plus.   its 2011... and i'd like to have some goals in mind.  i'd love to do one of those 365 blogs.. but i can't even come up with something i have enough passion for, to do for 365 days.    take a photograph?  sure... i can do that.  but its so over-done.  i want a realistic goal or resolution or 365 project.  anything.  anything to focus on for a year.  but i can't think of one thing.

i have some things that i'd like to get done or need to get done in 2011...but none of them feel passion in my heart or mind.    things like:
1. get a job (would be nice to be one i like, but any job will be great)
2. take a vacation... preferably to an island or mexico...   relax with nothing around for a week.
3. get a new camera.. start building a portfolio and my business
4. find a goal for my life???  or some goals... or something i am passionate about??

i have one friend who thinks i need to write for a living somehow.  but i have no idea how to make that happen or what to write about.  its a nice idea, though.  maybe i need to blog each day for 365 days.  would that help?  they'd be short blogs, i'm sure, on some days due to time issues, but can i even write short blogs?  i babble way too much for that, usually. 

others tell me to focus on my photography.

hmmm... 2011 ~ what am i going?