Friday, December 07, 2007
ok, i admit it...
.. im nervous. tomorrow is the first day of clinicals. the classroom portion is over for my CNA training. (Certified Nurse Assistant, for those that dont know). i dont like nursing homes. they smell funny. even when they are clean. i dont like eating in them. i dont like hanging out in them. i dont particularly like hanging out with the elderly. i guess that makes me a horrible person, but its just not my gift. i do much better with new life, than end-of-life.
i didnt start CNA training because i have a heart for the elderly, even though i know most cna's work in that field. i did this, because i needed a skill i could get a job with. i needed a way to help support myself. i would idealy like to work in the mom and baby unit at the hospital, its where my gifts are, and where my passion is... BUT, as i learn more, i realize i may have to put my 'time' in at a nursing home for a while, before landing my 'dream job'.
tomorrow will tell alot. i guess after spending some time in the nursing home, i am sort of hopeing that i end up liking it much more than i expect to. maybe i've grown up some over the last few years... maybe not... but if i end up liking it, i will be much happier getting a job, and will have a much easier time doing so, as well.
book learning is the easy part. even as much as i hate studying, i've managed to pass all my tests.. aced 2 of them, even. now, dont get me wrong, cna training isnt all that. its basic, and almost common sense. you would think anyone could do it. passing the state exam in january will be a whole different challenge in itself. BUT... its the practicals. its putting what i've learned into play. and i am nervous.
so many changes in my life recently. and this is another big part of it. somedays im surprised i am still mentally capable of getting out of bed in the morning!
i am sure all the changes will be worth it! look at the bonuses already... i've made a friend in my class, AND i got to go shopping for scrubs today!! (which are the MOST unflattering things in the world!!)
*i have to wear a RED scrub top for the training.. ugh.. my worst color!! haha.
i am sure i will post a pic of me in my new 'look' in a few days. go ahead.. get excited!! yipeeeee!!
wish me luck!
p.s... maybe i will run into Dr. McDreamy..... hehe
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